What Up Peeps!!!
Happy New Years Everyone!!! Yes! It is finally 2011! Time for new changes, new outlook, and a new hope! Did you guys make your New Years Resolution? Well, as you may know, I did! My last year's Resolution had worked ALL THE WAY UP TO December.....and then I kinda broke it! But, that's a whole 'nother' story! This New Year's Resolution is different! It's sentimental and serious! But, before I tell you, let me get you geared up for why I'm making this New Year's Resolution special!
Well, as some of you may know, when it comes to love, bad luck strikes me every time! Including last semester, when I thought I had found love.....twice! I'd rather not go into detail about these two guys but the point is that fate HATES me!! It's been a known fact now for 4 years! I don't know what it is, but I just can't get any love'n from any guy in the world! And one thing that I've noticed is that every time I had a crush on someone, he was younger than me! All of the boyfriends that I ever had were younger than me! (And I've only had 3 real boyfriends!) To be perfectly honest, I was starting to get embarrassed by that!
And then, my last crush had happened! It didn't take me long to realize that he wasn't into me that way! And as I slowly stopped having a crush on him, I had noticed something! He is EXTREMELY immature! I mean, it would be impossible for us to even be together because I, for one, am extremely mature for my age! And yes, he is younger than me....if you were wondering! So, come New Years Eve, I had thought about my love life in total...and came up with a New Year's Resolution!
My New Year's Resolution is to wait for my soul mate! That's right! I'm gonna wait for my soul mate! I'm DONE with all of these frilly crushes on guys that I really don't even know-and that they don't even know me! Instead of waiting for the next one, I'm waiting for the one! I'm ready for my soul mate-I'm just waiting for him to be ready for me! And when that time comes, it's going to be magical and not some corny High School situation that will end within 1-2 months! I'm serious here! I'm DONE getting my heart broken! I'm ready to grow out of this! While I'm waiting, I'm taking some time off to figure myself out-get to know myself better! And I'm trying to love myself alot more now-but that seems to be hard for me because no guy has ever really loved me before! I'm going to be straight up honest with you: I don't think I'm pretty AT ALL! What guy would fall in love with THIS!?!? You may think I have low self-esteem right now and I kinda agree with you! But, given my past love life, it's sorta hard to come past it! But, it'll take me time, you know?!
So, as of right know, I'm just focused on my studies and waiting for my soul mate! I'm definitely looking forward to committing to this New Year's Resolution! For those of you who have made a New Year's Resolution: stay strong to it! There's a reason why you want to achieve that goal! And for those who haven't made a New Year's Resolution: think of something that'll change your life for the better! Good luck, Peeps and goodnight! :-)
*Remember*~There are many things in life that will catch your eyes, but only one that will catch your heart.
Your "Waiting" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A ~OFFICIAL Mrs. Samberg~
4 comments:
owhhhh i think you'll find one good guy before the end of this year....I guess you're right i too can't see myself with younger guys LOL.....good luck and keep posting
Well thank you!! I hope my soul mate comes soon too!! And younger guys are just too immature!! Thank you soooooooooo much for stopping by!!! I greatly appreciate it!!! :D
You are a beautiful person inside and out. As my grandma always said, "God don't make no ugly!" The problem that you have with guys, is the same I had in high school. Highschool guys are DUMMIES! They just have not reached your level of maturity. You have an emotional depth and a level of intelligence that most kids your age have not achieved. Now don't get me wrong. This is not a license to go patrolling the nursing homes. Just understand that real love comes when you are old enough to handle it. I know that you feel like you are ready right now (I did too at your age), but you can't truly, madly, deeply, feel love unless you've felt heartbreak. REAL heartbreak. Not that "Ray Ray don't wanna text me back" kinda stuff. I'm talk'n 'bout that low-down in ya guts, bone ache'n kinda heartbreak.
After that, when true love comes along, you'll recognize it. The same thing happened to me. I was with my boyfriend from highschool for five years. He was immature and dumb as a box of rocks. But, I thought it was love. He was an abusive, cheating, liar. I couldn't see it though. No one could tell me anything. I was too in LUV. After finding out some really horrible things that he had done, I finally moved out. I never thought that I would find love again. Then, Robert showed up like a breath of fresh air. He wasn't my first love, but he is my best. So, in conclusion of my love tirade, if it happens--great. If not--this is the time for you to develop yourself. Be selfish(in a good way). Devote your time to your writing and other things you enjoy. Love will be there when you least expect it.
Peace out lil homie
Thank u sooo much for your advice! It's true! Love does come when you least expect it! Sorry about that one guy that u dated in high school! 5 YEARS?! Woah! The longest relationship I had was 2 months! LOSNL!! But yeah, I'm definitly learning more about myself and focusing on things that I love to do! Thank u again for ur advice!!!
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