What Up Peeps!!!
Well, remember when I told you that my dad had came back and I thought that my family would be back to normal?! That everything would be the same?! Well....NOT QUITE!!!! In fact, since my dad had came back, things has gotten even WORSE!!! And, this time, it's not my dad's fault.......
Lately, my parents have been acting "strange" towards each other!!! Whenever my mom had called from work, Dad would get ME to get the phone!!! And whenever she wanted to talk to him...he refused to talk. Which made me stuck in the middle because I had to tell Mom that he was "asleep" or "busy". And, of course, I'm BAD at lying. So, it made phone conversations very awkward. And every time I heard mom and dad talking, it was either business-like, or they were arguing!!! Come to think of it, I've never heard my mom and dad say, "I love you" in a while. But, soon to come, my dad told me why they were acting this way.....
The reason?! My mom has been "seeing" this guy from her work. (Not naming names!!!) And when I'm saying, "seeing", Peeps, I mean "seeing"!!! She has went on, so you say, "Dates" with this guy!!! Now when Dad was telling me this, my mind went NUTS!!! My eyes were blurred with vision...and I was confused!!! This is NOT what a 15 year old girl, who wants a boyfriend sooo bad, wants to hear!!! Not at all!!! So, I took this seriously!!! I was in complete SHOCK!!! My Mom...CHEATING?! I couldn't believe it!!! This wasn't even like her!!! But, then there was a twist in this story.....
What was the twist?! My mom's so-called "Boyfriend", has a FIANCE and didn't even tell my mom at all!!! So, this so-called "plan" had back-fired on my mom!!! It was just getting worse and even MORE worse!!! And now, my mom's so-called "Boyfriend's" Fiance is ticked off, which, I would be, too, if I were her!!! And now, they are trying to bring my dad into this whole fiasco!!! To tell you the truth, I feel sooo bad for my dad!!! If I were him...I'd be CRUSHED!!! But, instead, my dad just LAUGHED it off in front of me!!! Which makes me even MORE sad because I think that's just a cover-up from crying about this whole situation!!!
So, how long has this been going on?! Since my mom had "invited" my dad to come back!!! I know, Peeps, it's hard to believe that this is happening to me!!! I had asked my dad on how he had felt about this!! He said that he wasn't going to leave the house again!!! He loves me, Hanifa, and Jabari!!! And nothing was going to change that!!! He said that he had to come back!!! He didn't want mom's "Boyfriend" to be our new Daddy!!! When he said this, I nearly cried!!! He lived and breathed for us!!! HIS CHILDREN!!! We are the ones that are keeping him smiling everyday!!! We are the ones that he will never stay away from!!! At that very moment, I understood what being a parent had meant.....
Life.....Unpredictable in soo many ways!!! You had your bad days...and your good days!!! Sometimes, you feel like your life is the WORST life ever....sometimes, you feel like your the luckiest person in the world!!! But, what I have learned is that FAMILY IS IMPORTANT!!! Sure, you'll hear teenagers say, "I can't wait until I'm 18...so that way I won't be in this house anymore!!!" But, we all know, even the teenagers, that we'll miss our family dearly!!! No matter what!!! And, when the time does come...we don't want to leave!!! So now, our family has changed!!! We don't go shopping ALL TOGETHER like we used to!!! We don't ALL ATTEND to family nights like we used to!!! Everything has changed...and it's quite unfortunate!!!
One thing I have known, is that NO MATTER WHAT, my parents will be there for me when I need them the most!!! And that's what I'm thankful for!!! So, now, I guess, Mom and her so-called "Boyfriend" aren't talking to each other!!! (I'm not sure) And now, mom and dad talk about that subject in a low profile!!! So, that's all I know Peeps!!! But, I do ponder on this, now that I'm getting older: Will my future boyfriend or husband cheat on me?! Will/Would we break up or have a divorce?! I surly do hope not!!! Because I will love my mate dearly!!! And, I will not cheat on him!!! (THAT'S FOR SURE!!!) Well, Peeps, I hope you've learned something from me, because that's what I'm here for!!! Be thankful for what you have!!! You never know what you got, until it's gone!!!
*Remember*~Sift through your past to get a better idea of the present.
Your "Lonely and confused" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A. Princess Caspian
