What Up Peeps!!!
As you have read the title above, I do have a crush on someone at my school!!! And yes, he's in my Band/Marching Band class!! Never, this year, have I ever thought that I'd have a crush on someone BESIDES Ben Barnes!!! This guy does NOT look like Ben Barnes at all-but, oddly enough, he looks like my 7th Grade crush, Kyle Dexter!! He ALWAYS makes me laugh and he has AMAZING brown eyes!!! Sadly, he is a Freshmen....but, judging the fact that I have a celebrity crush on a 27 year-old, AGE DOES NOT MATTER TO ME!!!(Well, if the guy was 40, that would bother me!!! LOL!!)
Well, lately, I've been having feelings where I actually do think that this guy likes me!!! Like, sometimes, when Chirag, my friend, would dog me out (disses me-jokingly), the guy that I'm crush'n on, would IMMEDIATELY defend me like there's no tomorrow!!! He would also TRY to make me laugh-which always works!!! And then there's those RANDOM times-I mean RANDOM times, where he stares at me for long periods of time!! There's soo much more clues than that!!! It's weird, you know?! This guy flirts with me in weirdest ways....and I think I like it!!
I actually have a Band clique, (I pronounce it "cleek"-which drives people insane!!!) and the guy that I'm crush'n on is in it!!! So is Chirag, Kelsey, George, sometimes Katrina, and sometimes Bobvin!! Well, about 2 weeks ago, I had decided to write the guy that I'm crush'n on a note telling him my feelings and asking him if he likes me back!!! After I wrote the note, I had decided that I should get consultants from Kelsey and Chirag!!! Chirag was starting to notice the "Clues" from the "Guy" as well as I was!!! He, too, had believed that the "Guy" likes me as well!!
So, we then told Kelsey about the clues and of me writing a note to the "Guy"!!! She REALLY thought that the "Guy" had liked me as well!!! So, we came up with a name for the "Guy" and the situation!!! It's name was: Ubalation Domination Celebration!!! (oo-bu-la-shun) We had decided for me to give Ubalation (the "Guy") the note this past Friday!!!! It was soo cool because we made a specific time for me to give Ubalation the note!!! (It was when 2 minutes had past when the hand struck 5) Of course, all of us, the clique, were in the same Band class period together!!!
When it was time for me to give Ubalation the note, my heart was speeding soo fast and soo hard, that I could barely see anything!!! Of course, Ubalation was around some people, soo, to help me, Chirag and Kelsey had screamed out his name...and Ubalation had came over!!! My stomach was starting to churn, and I felt like I was going to throw up!!! When I get shy or nervous in front of a guy, I ALWAYS look down and NEVER look them in the eyes!!! So, with my eyes looking down, I gave Ubalation the note telling him to not read it now-it'd be too awkward!!! But, he REALLY wanted to read it then!!! I screamed out, "No!!" and told him to read it later!!
He then had said that he'll read it next class!! I was then satisfied!!! So, I waited by the classroom clock, ready for the bell to ring!!! And then I turned around and saw Ubalation READING THE NOTE IN FULL EFFECT!!! I turned around, eyes wide, and told Kelsey!!! When she saw, she yelled at his name for him to stop reading-but, he was too intrigued to notice and kept reading!!! At that moment, I felt my body start to warm up with embarrassment, and I began to feel hot!!! "Come on bell, ring, Ring, RING!!!"-I whispered to myself!!! Sure enough, the bell had rung, and I zoomed out of the Band room like I had to go pee!!! I was nearly running, trying to run from ANY embarrassment that might've came next!!!
When lunch came around, I had mixed feelings!! Since the 6th grade, I've been giving guys that I had a crush on, notes-and none of the notes had ever succeeded in any way!!! The only boyfriend that I have ever had, was towards the end of the 8th grade!!!-and that became a long-distance relationship because I moved here....it just didn't work out in the end!!! "If I've been giving notes to guys since I was in the 6th grade, and it NEVER worked, what makes me think that this time'll work?!"-I thought to myself. "The clues...it just has to be!!"-I thought once more!!
After lunch, I went to my 6th period class!! When Chirag got there, he told me that he knows what Ubalation said about the note!!(Chirag is in Ubalation's class after Band) I sadly said, without a smile on my face, "He said no, didn't he?" Chirag smiled and shook his head no!! My expression had changed for what Chirag had said next!! "He said that he's inclined to say 'yes'!! But, he's going to think about it over the weekend!!" I was shocked and confused all at once!!! "Could this be it?! Is the curse over?! Will a guy from Arizona finally like me?!"~I asked myself in desperation!! For the rest of the day, I was COMPLETELY jolly!! At 7th period, Kelsey came up to me and was wondering if I knew the news!!! I told her yes!! She told me that she was VERY happy for me!!
Peeps, I'm not so sure if this is a good thing or not!!! The words are still numbing in my brain!! All I know, is that I'll find out the answer, either yes or no, tomorrow!! Peeps, I'm anxious and excited right now!!! But, by tomorrow, I'm going to be shaking in my flip-flops like crazy!! So, Peeps what do you think?! Do you think that this'll be my first boyfriend in Arizona?! Or another regret that'll add up in my memory bank?! Tomorrow, I'll know for sure!! And I'll make sure that I'll tell you the results next time I'll talk to you!! Wish me luck Peeps-I'm REALLY going to need it!!
*Remember*~Friends long absent are coming back to you.
Your, "Anxious and Nervous" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Princess Caspian
