This is my Baby Brother, Jabari,

saying, "Cheese" to the camera!




And here's Jabari wearing his
new

red sweater, acting like he's
Alvin

from Alvin and the Chipmunks!!

Here's one of my favorite layouts

of Ben Barnes!!! This is called

Smile 4 Me!!

Here's a better version of that

layout!!!

I Am Officially And Legally 16 Years Old!!!!!

What Up Peeps!!!

YES!!! The phenomenon has finally happened!!! The year EVERY girl just can't wait to come!!! My Sweet Sixteen had finally came!! It had happened on Thursday, December 11th!!! And {moan} it just so happened that I had a Band concert that night as well!!! So, my family and I had to celebrate my birthday that weekend!! But, the concert was AMAZING.......

At the concert that night, I was late.....as usual. But, I was able to make it in the nick of time!!! And let me tell you, it was not easy getting into my Concert Band uniform in only 4-5 minutes before performing. Luckily, I had put on some perfume and Extra swipes of deodorant that night, because I had done something very brave that I'll never forget for the rest of my life. When our (Concert Band) was done with our first part of our performance, we stepped on into the audience to wait for intermission. And, blankly and blindly, I had FOLLOWED Andrew through the audience and SAT-NEXT-TO-HIM!!! At the time, my mind went blank and only my heart took control of what I was doing!!! It was like I had blanked out for a moment there!!! I could tell that Andrew was just a tad bit shocked when he found me sitting next to him....but, he didn't mind at all. So, we sat there....listening to the orchestra play. I could tell that Andrew was nervous-he kept fiddling with his hands and even stared at me for what seemed like, 3 MINUTES STRAIGHT!!! I was nervous as well-biting my nails and only pretending to listen to the orchestra play. In my mind, I was really curious about what Andrew was thinking about at that moment!!! Wondering if he was thinking about me at that exact moment!!!

For all of you elder Peeps of mine, I know what you're thinking!!! You're thinking, "Ahh!!! Young love!! Such a beautiful thing!!" LOL!!! You are right!! At this point, me and Andrew are taking it slow on our relationship!! As for my 16th birthday on Saturday, it was AMAZING!!! We had first went out for breakfast!!! It was IHOP!!! Of course, I had ordered stuffed french toast and scrambled eggs!!! It wasn't very filling to me, so, my mom had gave me some of her omelet that she had ordered. It was very generous of her and I was very grateful that she did that for me. Then, we went to go see the movie.....Twilight!!! I was planning on seeing the movie Easy Virtue with Ben Barnes and Jessica Biel in it on my birthday....but, the movie came out on November 7th in the UK and they didn't even premiere the trailer for it on television here in the US. I was kind of upset about that for a while. But, after making the choice of seeing Twilight on my birthday, I couldn't have been any happier!!

The movie was totally awesome!!!! I must admit that Edward Cullin is very sexy in the movie!!! I can see why girls always fight over him at my school!!! Afterwards, we had went home and ordered Pizza Hut!!! We had stayed home and watched Andaconda 3 and also ate cake!!! It was actually an ice cream cake....and it was delicious!!! I couldn't have asked for a better birthday than this one!!! I am very thankful and blessed for a wonderful family and friends!!!

Well, Peeps, there's more to come later!!!
*Remember*~Every birthday, you're another year older, another year wiser. ~All Grown Up

Your "Legally 16 Year-Old" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Princess Caspian

Come On Into My Tropical Garden

What Up Peeps!!!

Poem Background:This poem was actually not written by me!! It was written by a famous poet named Grace Nichols!! This poem that she wrote was very capturing to me when I was in the 9th grade!! It is definitely one of the poems that I found to inspire me!! This poem is very entertaining and is kind of like an Imagery poem. It'll definitely make you feel welcomed, comfortable, and warm inside when you read this poem. Some parts of this poem will rhyme and other parts will not. So, here's the poem, "Come On Into My Tropical Garden". Enjoy!!!
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Come On Into
My Tropical
Garden
Come on into my tropical garden
Come on in and have a laugh in
Taste my sugar cake and my pine drink
Come on in please come on in

And yes you can stand up in my
hammock
and breeze out in my trees
you can pick my hibiscus
and kiss my chimpanzees

O you can roll up in the grass
and if you pick up a flea
I'll take you down for a quick dip-wash
in the sea
believe me there's nothing better
for getting rid of a flea
than having a quick dip-wash in the
sea

Come on into my tropical garden
Come on in please come on in

Written By:
Grace Nichols

Selected By:
Saidah Wilson
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So, what did you think of the poem? Did you see and feel the images that Grace had emphasized on?! I did! That's actually one of the reasons why I love this poem. It feels like you're new in town, and your new next door neighbore introduces themselves to you and lets you into their home!! I think that's pretty cool and nice!!

Well, Peeps, hopefully that was a nice and refreshing poem for you to read and enjoy!!! If you write poems and want your poems and yourself to be featured on my blog, contact me through my e-mail, which is:
greenorangesinger7@gmail.com
Or, if you go to North Canyon High School, you do know that you can always talk to me about it!! Well, Peeps, there's more to come later!!!

*Remember*~He who has hope, has everything

Your "Relaxed" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Princess Caspian

Meet My First Boyfriend In Arizona!!!!

What Up Peeps!!!!

Yes!! The title is true!!! Believe it or not, me, Saidah Kamaria Wilson, has a boyfriend!!! Just saying this title makes me all giddy inside!!! The curse is OVER!!! A guy actually likes me!!! Now that he is my boyfriend, I can now tell you that his name is Andrew Craven!!! The ONLY class Andrew and I are in is in Band/Marching Band class!!! I still can't get over the fact that a guy would even be interested in me!!! But, to my best ability, I try not to question a miracle-just to live it!!! Once Monday had came, Andrew was, like, all excited!! I wasn't. I was strictly nervous and scared because I thought that I would get rejected, once more!!!

When I was in the Band room, come Monday, I was shaking-literally! Andrew was as calm as a bumble bee. But, as I was getting ready for class, I heard him say to someone, "Yeah. When I showed my friend the note, he noticed all of the exclamation marks too!" (or, something like that) "Oh my God!! Is he talking about the note I gave him?! Yeah...it's definitely a 'No'!"-I thought to myself. And then, all of the sudden, Kelsey came up to me and said that she's having a bad day. Andrew jumped in and said that other than him having a stomachache, he's having a great day! Kelsey was confused and said, "Why would you have a good day if you have a stomachache?!" Then, Andrew said proudly,"Because I said 'Yes'!" I stopped what I was doing and my eyes grew big and wide!!! "I said yes to the note!!"-he continued!! At that very moment, I felt everything had changed! "He said yes to the note!! He likes me!!!"-I thought to myself.

Andrew had then pulled out the note I had given him on Friday and said, "Do you know how many times I had to read this just to know that it was real?!" (yeah...he kept the note in his pocket!!! When I saw and noticed this, I had realized that he really does like me back!!) "About 3 times!! You know, you had put down 19 exclamation marks on this note?! It was like hearing a person on caffeine!!" I just sat there, in complete shock and paralyzed!! So, then Andrew had faced me and had said, "So, how should we do this?!" All of the sudden, I had realized that this was real!! I had then told him that I'm new to this!! Luckily for me, he is too!! He had said that he's NEVER received a note before stating this!! I had nodded my head realizing that pretty much every guy that I've given notes to, had said somewhat the same thing!!

So, we sat there for a while thinking. I must admit, it was VERY AWKWARD!!! But, I kind of liked it!! So, in the end, we had decided to contact each other through MySpace. (EVERYONE in the ENTIRE world either has MySpace and/or Facebook now-a-days!!!) So, far, it's been great!!! And, between you and me, Peeps, EVERYDAY, right before second hour ends, I always get butterflies in my stomach for next period-Band.

OMB! I just can not believe I have a boyfriend. I LOVE that word: Boyfriend!! LOL!! So, Peeps, you're going to be hearing a lot about Andrew now!!! But, this is a great chance for you two to get to know each other!! I'm just thankful and happy for this miracle. I'd never think that a guy would actually like me back. I remember my First High School Crush, A.K.A Alex Bradley say to me, "Saidah, why do you like the guys that you know you can't have?!" Ha! I wish I could see his face now if I told him that I have a boyfriend!! Then he'll feel sorry for even making that comment!! Anyways, I'm really happy that I gave Andrew the note!!! *Thank you Chirag and Kelsey for convincing and making me give the note to Andrew!!! I couldn't have done it without you!!!*

Well, Peeps, there's always more from me!! Until then, I'll talk to you guys next week!!

*Remember*~Don't question a miracle-just live it.

Your "Lucky and Loved" Friend,

Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Princess Caspian

This is me......

Pose'n for the camera!!

This is also me......

Try'n to act like I'm on

Scream Queens.

And, of course, here's

Ben Barnes!!

Here's a better picture

of that (above) layout.

ENJOY!!!

I Have A Crush On Someone!!!!!

What Up Peeps!!!

As you have read the title above, I do have a crush on someone at my school!!! And yes, he's in my Band/Marching Band class!! Never, this year, have I ever thought that I'd have a crush on someone BESIDES Ben Barnes!!! This guy does NOT look like Ben Barnes at all-but, oddly enough, he looks like my 7th Grade crush, Kyle Dexter!! He ALWAYS makes me laugh and he has AMAZING brown eyes!!! Sadly, he is a Freshmen....but, judging the fact that I have a celebrity crush on a 27 year-old, AGE DOES NOT MATTER TO ME!!!(Well, if the guy was 40, that would bother me!!! LOL!!)

Well, lately, I've been having feelings where I actually do think that this guy likes me!!! Like, sometimes, when Chirag, my friend, would dog me out (disses me-jokingly), the guy that I'm crush'n on, would IMMEDIATELY defend me like there's no tomorrow!!! He would also TRY to make me laugh-which always works!!! And then there's those RANDOM times-I mean RANDOM times, where he stares at me for long periods of time!! There's soo much more clues than that!!! It's weird, you know?! This guy flirts with me in weirdest ways....and I think I like it!!

I actually have a Band clique, (I pronounce it "cleek"-which drives people insane!!!) and the guy that I'm crush'n on is in it!!! So is Chirag, Kelsey, George, sometimes Katrina, and sometimes Bobvin!! Well, about 2 weeks ago, I had decided to write the guy that I'm crush'n on a note telling him my feelings and asking him if he likes me back!!! After I wrote the note, I had decided that I should get consultants from Kelsey and Chirag!!! Chirag was starting to notice the "Clues" from the "Guy" as well as I was!!! He, too, had believed that the "Guy" likes me as well!!

So, we then told Kelsey about the clues and of me writing a note to the "Guy"!!! She REALLY thought that the "Guy" had liked me as well!!! So, we came up with a name for the "Guy" and the situation!!! It's name was: Ubalation Domination Celebration!!! (oo-bu-la-shun) We had decided for me to give Ubalation (the "Guy") the note this past Friday!!!! It was soo cool because we made a specific time for me to give Ubalation the note!!! (It was when 2 minutes had past when the hand struck 5) Of course, all of us, the clique, were in the same Band class period together!!!

When it was time for me to give Ubalation the note, my heart was speeding soo fast and soo hard, that I could barely see anything!!! Of course, Ubalation was around some people, soo, to help me, Chirag and Kelsey had screamed out his name...and Ubalation had came over!!! My stomach was starting to churn, and I felt like I was going to throw up!!! When I get shy or nervous in front of a guy, I ALWAYS look down and NEVER look them in the eyes!!! So, with my eyes looking down, I gave Ubalation the note telling him to not read it now-it'd be too awkward!!! But, he REALLY wanted to read it then!!! I screamed out, "No!!" and told him to read it later!!

He then had said that he'll read it next class!! I was then satisfied!!! So, I waited by the classroom clock, ready for the bell to ring!!! And then I turned around and saw Ubalation READING THE NOTE IN FULL EFFECT!!! I turned around, eyes wide, and told Kelsey!!! When she saw, she yelled at his name for him to stop reading-but, he was too intrigued to notice and kept reading!!! At that moment, I felt my body start to warm up with embarrassment, and I began to feel hot!!! "Come on bell, ring, Ring, RING!!!"-I whispered to myself!!! Sure enough, the bell had rung, and I zoomed out of the Band room like I had to go pee!!! I was nearly running, trying to run from ANY embarrassment that might've came next!!!

When lunch came around, I had mixed feelings!! Since the 6th grade, I've been giving guys that I had a crush on, notes-and none of the notes had ever succeeded in any way!!! The only boyfriend that I have ever had, was towards the end of the 8th grade!!!-and that became a long-distance relationship because I moved here....it just didn't work out in the end!!! "If I've been giving notes to guys since I was in the 6th grade, and it NEVER worked, what makes me think that this time'll work?!"-I thought to myself. "The clues...it just has to be!!"-I thought once more!!

After lunch, I went to my 6th period class!! When Chirag got there, he told me that he knows what Ubalation said about the note!!(Chirag is in Ubalation's class after Band) I sadly said, without a smile on my face, "He said no, didn't he?" Chirag smiled and shook his head no!! My expression had changed for what Chirag had said next!! "He said that he's inclined to say 'yes'!! But, he's going to think about it over the weekend!!" I was shocked and confused all at once!!! "Could this be it?! Is the curse over?! Will a guy from Arizona finally like me?!"~I asked myself in desperation!! For the rest of the day, I was COMPLETELY jolly!! At 7th period, Kelsey came up to me and was wondering if I knew the news!!! I told her yes!! She told me that she was VERY happy for me!!

Peeps, I'm not so sure if this is a good thing or not!!! The words are still numbing in my brain!! All I know, is that I'll find out the answer, either yes or no, tomorrow!! Peeps, I'm anxious and excited right now!!! But, by tomorrow, I'm going to be shaking in my flip-flops like crazy!! So, Peeps what do you think?! Do you think that this'll be my first boyfriend in Arizona?! Or another regret that'll add up in my memory bank?! Tomorrow, I'll know for sure!! And I'll make sure that I'll tell you the results next time I'll talk to you!! Wish me luck Peeps-I'm REALLY going to need it!!

*Remember*~Friends long absent are coming back to you.

Your, "Anxious and Nervous" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Princess Caspian

Why Don't You Just Leave Me Alone!!!!

What Up Peeps!!!

Poem Background: This poem was written when I was in the 8th grade!! In this poem, I was learning that sometimes, mean people just want someone to mess with. And that someone could be as gullible and nice as I am!! I know...it's a sad world we're living in, right?! But, in this poem, this was definitely directed to one SPECIFIC person that drove me insane!!! I won't say any names.....but the person was a male!!! So, here's the poem, "Why Don't You Just Leave Me Alone!!!!" Enjoy!!!
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Why Don't You
Just Leave Me
Alone!!!!
How come you always
bug me?
Why do you call me names
that are offensive towards
women?
Do you think I can't see?
When you take my stuff and
hide it..........
and watch me stress out?
Why do I ask myself often,
"Why me?"
How come, whenever I see you,
my heart jumps......
knowing that you'll be mean
to me?
Why do you like to torture
me?
Saying mean things about
Sanjaya........
knowing that I love him.
Sometimes, I want to shout,
"What do you want from me?"
Do you torture me because you
like me?
Well, you sure are acting like it.
If you don't like me.....
then leave me alone!
I never did anything to you!
So, the next time you bother
me, I'll shout out,
"Why don't you just leave
me alone!!!!"

Written By:
Saidah Wilson
A.K.A
Sanjaya
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So what did you think of this poem?! Pretty intense, huh?! You know the expression, "A picture is worth a thousand words"? Well, this poem is expressing a heck of a lot of feelings, isn't it?! I was just soo frustrated that day, you know?! I remember it like it was just yesterday!! I was in the gym....Wacky Wednesday, I believe that's what we called it!!! (Wacky Wednesday was simply if you had no behavior problems or anything like that!!! You got a chance to go to the gym and do whatever you wanted to do!!! Plus, you get to miss your last class before lunch!!!) I was bored that day, because none of my friends were able to attend Wacky Wednesday!!! So, I decided to let out my feelings and started to create this poem!!!

This poem just goes to show that you can do pretty much anything you want to do when you're bored!!! Oh, and just to let you know, I haven't talked to that guy since I moved here to Arizona!!! (The guy that I'm talking about from this poem!!!) Also, when I just reread this poem, I kind of chuckled when I said, "Saying mean things about Sanjaya....knowing that I love him." LOL!!! I was just I child back then!!! As you know, I now love Ben Barnes!!!! Well, Peeps, I hope you've enjoyed that poem!!! Of course, there's always more to come from me!!! So, I'll talk to you guys next week!!!

*Remember*~A lifetime friend shall soon be made.

Your "Irritated" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Princess Caspian

Still Hang'n In There.....

What Up Peeps!!!

Well, my family is still hang'n in there!!! This week, Hanifa and I didn't receive allowance!! :-( Though we are patient, we are pretty much counting the days until our parents' paychecks comes through!! I'm practically biting my nails because of this!!! Did you know that DAVID ARCHULETA'S CD is coming out on Tuesday?! Yeah!!! That's why I need allowance!!! I Love David Archuleta!!! I've always had a crush on him!!!! And I love his single, "Crush"!!! But, honestly, I can't buy his CD yet because I don't have enough money for it!!! But, I'm getting there!!!

My mom had went to the store this morning!!! She had bought a lot of goodies!!! Like bagels, cream cheese, and even yams!!! Mmmmm....it's making me hungry just thinking about it!!! Peeps, are you ready for the Holidays?! Or, should I say, can you handle the Holidays?! LOL!!! I know I am!!! I'm just ecstatic about it!!! I had found out just yesterday, that my dad was getting a RAISE!!!! About $2-$3 extra per hour when my dad works!!! That's pretty cool!!! And you know that we NEED the money!!! And my mom's been working EVERY DAY-giving out flu shots is her temporary job, and she also works at her regular job as well!!! When we say that we need the money, we MEANT it!!! My parents have been working their butt off!!! If I had a job, I would certainly give my paychecks to my parents to help out this situation!!!

It's only in a matter of time when we actually get caught up!!! It seems like, and let me repeat, it SEEMS LIKE my mom and dad won't be getting a divorce!!! When my parents were asleep, Hanifa had carefully went into their room to go wake them up....and then, she saw something on their bed!!! What was it?!-you ask. Let's just say, it's used for protection!!! I'm not saying ANYTHING ELSE about it!!! So, yeah, things are looking pretty good from here!!! Well, Peeps, I'm going to go make me some of those bagels right now!!! I'll talk to you guys next week!!!

*Remember*~Today, you should spend some time to search in yourself.

Your "One and Only" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Princess Caspian

Family at Crisis!!!!

What Up Peeps!!!

As this year is rolling along, I have noticed something.....MY FAMILY IS AT A CRISIS HERE!!!! Yeah, I know!!! That's pretty blunt of me to say, but it's true!!! Well, remember when my dad had lost his job? Well, that had made my mom REALLY stressed out!!! I mean, she had to work DOUBLE TIME!!! About a month later, my dad had found a new job!!! But, I guess, even now...we're still not having a lot of money!! My mom is working TRIPLE TIME now (Despite the fact that she's in college right now!!), and my dad is working every weekday. But, what's really going on between my parents?.....

The question ponders me as much as it ponders you as of right now!!! As far as I know, I honestly don't know what's going on between my parents!! I mean, they don't argue as much anymore....and no drama has been spurring since the last couple of months!!!! And NO ONE dares to speak about my dad's extra condo now-a-days!! I honestly don't know what's going to happen between my parents after this Crisis ends!!! Speaking of this Crisis that we're in: I think that this Crisis has been keeping both my parents busy...so, all of that Divorce stuff may just be out of their minds as of right now!! Which, for me, is a good thing!!!

This Crisis of ours isn't what it's cracked up to be. For one, me and my sister, Hanifa, can't get any allowance as of right now!! (Because we are out of money!!) Also, I have a Band field trip in the near Spring, and the first deposit of the money, $50, was due just this past Tuesday!!! And guess what?! My mom couldn't pay for it because she wasn't going to get paid yet until next week!! I know!!! This is truly sad!! And do you want to know what else is sad?! Having our refrigerator almost completely empty at times, is no stranger to us!!! :-( It's pretty sad and embarrassing all at once!! Sometimes, I'm not able to go to my band practice or a band game or even a band competition because BOTH of my parents are working on that day!!!

Hopefully, this Crisis will end before my 16th birthday!!! Because I have a list of things I want for gifts on that day!!! LOL!!! I want to thank you sooo much Peeps for listening to me!!! You know, these days, it's hard to let out your true feelings when there's no one to confide in!!! Well, Peeps, I have to go eat dinner now!!! It's burgers tonight!!! LOL!!! I'll talk to you guys next week!!!

*Remember*~Long life is in store for you.

Your "Broke for now" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Princess Caspian

This Is the typical me on a

weekend!!! Rock'n out to

one of my CD's on practically

FULL Blast!!!!

And here's me wearing a LOVELY,

SEXY teal dress that I'm going to

wear on Monday!!!

And, of course, we can't forget

my man, Ben Barnes!!! I love

this next picture!! He looks

like he's say'n, "Maybe yes...

maybe no...we'll see!!!"

And this is a picture of him

as, My Hero, Prince Caspian!!!

Ahhh...he makes my heart melt!!!

ENJOY!!!!

Sick and Tired of It

What Up Peeps!!!

Poem Background:This poem was written when I was in the 8th grade!!! I had pretty much let out my stress onto this poem!! But, at the same time, during this poem, you will see me understanding what life really is!! By the way, in this poem, I'm listing all of the things that happened to me in the 8th grade!!! See if any of these things happened to you around this grade!!! So, here's the poem, "Sick and Tired of It"!! Enjoy!!!
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Sick and Tired
of It
I'm sick and tired of
wak'n up at 5:00 a.m.
I'm sick and tired of
being made fun of.
I'm sick and tired of it.

I'm sick and tired of
all of these Common Assessments.
I'm sick and tired of
being called, "Wierdo!"
I'm sick and tired of it.

I'm sick and tired of
people making fun of my friend,
Kyle Scruggs.
I'm sick and tired of
the Cardinals' team think'n
that they're smarter than me
and are better than me.
I'm sick and tired of it.

I'm sick and tired of
feeling invisable.
I'm sick and tired of
going all the way up to
the 3rd floor to go to
Document Formatting.
I'm sick and tired of it.

I'm sick and tired of
knowing that life isn't
always fair.
I'm sick and tired of
knowing that I have to
move on in my life and that
these little things that I'm
sick and tired of..........
will pass.

Written By:
Sanjaya
A.K.A
Saidah Wilson
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So, what did you think about this poem?! As I had just finished reading this poem, I have realized that I had a lot of stress when I was younger and didn't know how to express it besides putting it into poem form. And I still do have that feeling of being invisible!! O!!! And get this!! I now wake up at 1 a.m. on school mornings!!!! Yeah!!! So, I'm still stressed out!!! Now that I look back, I got it made in the 8th grade!!!! Here, in High School, it's impossible not to feel stressed out!!! But, towards the end of the poem, did you see how I had shifted my attitude a bit?! I had said that it'll all pass!!! Which is true....it's just that, in time it'll all pass. Which means it could be 3 years for all we know!!! We just have to wait and see!!

Well, Peeps, I best be going now!!! I'll talk to you guys next week!!!

*Remember*~You use your creative talents to transform a business environment.

Your "Stressful" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Princess Caspian

Can You Say P-S-A-T's???!!!

What Up Peeps!!!

I know all of you High Schoolers and elders has heard of it before!! The PSAT's!! I know....it's a scary word to say aloud. But, EVERYONE has to take it EVERY year in High School!! (It wavers if you're a Freshman!!! And Seniors...You're lucky!!! You don't have to take it!!!) Well, I did take the PSAT Test last year!!! And I did it this year as well!!!

I actually just took the PSAT last Wednesday!! Peeps, don't ask if it was easy or not!!! I hate having to classify ANY test as easy or hard!!(Just comes with my personality!! :-) ) But, I can tell you that the test covers over what you have already learned so far. Last year, when I had taken the test, I was freaking out!!! No lie!!! And after the test, my head was killing me!!! I had felt like my brain had exploded or was oozing out of my skull. But, this year, I was still a little bit nervous. And after the test, I walked out of the classroom with my head held high!! Head completely feeling fine, and I was completely energized!!

What I have learned this year,so far,is that after taking ANY test, I walk out of the classroom, head high, and go on with my life!! Not thinking about if the test was easy or hard!! Not wondering if I got a certain problem wrong on the test!! I just erase the test from my brain and...WALK AWAY!!! See, here's why:If I tell my friends that the test was easy, and I actually had failed it miserably, and my friends saw, it'd be completely embarrassing!! We're talking humiliation here!!(Plus, I don't want to jinx myself!!) So, it's just best to study hard, take the test, and walk away!! No questions asked!!I don't even talk about the test afterwards either!! You'll come to find out, that this method may actually work!!! It's working for me, that's for sure!!

So, for those of you who haven't taken the PSAT's yet, don't worry!! Your time will come shortly!!(Hence the laughter!!) I'm actually glad I took the test this year as well!!! Some Sophomores at my school just ditched it and didn't seem to realize what was the point for a PSAT!! It's actually the practice test for the SAT's!!! Which, of course, I'm shaking in my sandals for!!! That's the test score the MAJORITY of the colleges look at!! But, all of that comes in time!! Well, Peeps, I have some more homework to finish!! I'll talk to you guys next week!!!

*Remember*~Any impatience you show will only create more stress.

Your "done w/ PSAT's for now" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Princess Caspian

Memories......

What Up Peeps!!!

Memories......That's all I can say at this point!! You know, memories can impact a person soo much. Whether it's good or bad. {Chuckle} Actually, just yesterday, I had a Marching Band Invitational. Though, I did come in late yesterday, all other 12 MARCHING BANDS came to our North Canyon High School to perform and be judged. Including SHADOW MOUNTAIN HIGH SCHOOL!!! When I heard that Shadow Mountain High School, my old high school, marching band was going to be there yesterday, I completely freaked out and was nervous and excited all at once!!!! And I knew, right then and there, that I had to watch out for mistakes when I perform.

After the Shadow Mountain High School had performed, they marched over to where my Marching Band was at, the rehearsing area, and was heading for their bus to drop off their instruments!! I was hoping that they'd wave at me or say, "Hi!!" to me...but they didn't. :-( They kept marching forward with intensity in their eyes!! I must admit, seeing all of my old Marching Friends right there in front of my face, almost brought tears to my eyes!! I truly do miss them!!! Then, after we had warmed up, it was time for US to perform.....

My throat was arid. I made sure that I had stretched out my back COMPLETELY so that way I won't have a back-cramp as I was performing. I felt like my heart was coming up in my throat. Hearing only my heart within the crowd's noise. All I saw, were the football field's bright, white lights. Staring at it, gave me a sense of courage to go on. After my drum majors did their salutes, they dismissed us to go to our spots!!! And that was it!! We took off for our performance!!.......

Wavers of cheers went all over the stands!!! ALL 12 Marching Bands saw and heard us perform!!! Including Shadow Mountain High School Marching Band!!! As we marched off the field, I heard SHADOW MOUNTAIN HIGH SCHOOL MARCHING BAND scream out, "Go Saidah!!! Yeah Saidah!! Saidah!!!" in chants!!! I smiled really wide and looked over, seeing Karina, my fellow marching band friend{in the stands},from Shadow Mountain High School Marching Band, jumping up and down crying out my name as well!!! As I saw in amazement, I tripped over something orange!!! I don't know what it was, but, it was orange!!! (Yeah!!! That's a blooper moment!!!) Hopefully, nobody saw that!!! (I technically didn't trip over it....I actually kicked it over!!) At that very moment, I felt like screaming and crying with joy!!!! I had then realized something: My old Marching Band didn't forget about me!!! They remembered me!!!

I had told my former Baritone player, and three clarinet players what had happened!!! They were all happy for me!!! From that moment on, for the rest of the night, I was hyper with excitement!!! Telling my friends over and over again how it felt to have my old marching band cry out my name and cheer for me!!! Right before the awards ceremony began, 3 of the Shadow Mountain High School Marching Band kids, came out to talk to me!!! When they showed up, I was hyperventilating and was nervous!!! (Almost like how I would react if I met Ben Barnes face-to-face!!!) They had to personally calm me down as well!!! Then they told me their experiences and how they were!!! And they also told me how my old band directer is doing!!! It was kind of weird at first, because I thought they'd be the least likely to come and talk to me!!! Two of them used to always tease me and the other helped my First High School Crush keep my diary!!! But, those thoughts were pushed aside then!!!

It was, indeed, a night to remember!!! The stars were aligned yesterday night for me!! Not only was Allah watching me, but, I felt like the stars were watching and guiding me as well!!! Huh...ponderous really!!! It's truly amazing what memories can do to you!!! If I had a chance to redo yesterday night, I wouldn't change it for the world!!! (Well, maybe the whole tripping-over-the-orange-thing-scene!!! LOL!!!) I have now realized that I am a memorable person!!! People love me for ME!!! And that's what I'm thankful for!!! I am a lovable person!!! I'm definitely glad I went to the Invitational yesterday!!! It's events like these that makes you go and find your real self!!! Take care Peeps!!! More to come later!!!

*Remember*~You can always make new memories, but you'll always have your old ones.

Your "Lovable and Memorable" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Princess Caspian

The Little Girl

What Up Peeps!!!

Poem Background:This poem was kind of my own "creation"!! Some of this poem is about me, and some of it isn't. I actually wanted to create a poem that brought out big emotions that were just too much to bare!! I had written this poem when I was in the 8th grade. At the time, my inspiration was this girl I used to know, that had moved to Texas, and had given me some of her poems. Please, Peeps, don't read too deeply into this poem!! I made it simply out of emotions that I felt, at the time, was necessary. So, here's the poem, "The Little Girl"!! Enjoy!!
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The Little Girl
The little girl hears a
slam of a door.
Behind that door,
she hears her parents yell'n
at each other.
The little girl
runs to her room and hides
under her covers.
She hides her shame,
guilt,
and cries
from everyone.
She cries herself to sleep
at night,
hoping for her parents to
come and comfort her;
but they don't.
They don't pay no mind
to the little girl.
The little girls heart
is shattered and broken;
too late to be fixed.
She has no friends @ school.
People bully her everyday.
At home,
she feels invisable;
her parents just close the
door,
and fight.
The little girl just
basically.....
lives her life alone;
in the dark.
Someone needs to wake her
up from this nightmare.
She's livin' her life.......
anti-socially.

Written By:
Saidah Wilson
A.K.A
Sanjaya
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So, what did you think of that poem?! Pretty deep, huh?! Like I had said before, some of this poem is about me, and the rest isn't. After reading this poem just now, I have realized that my dialect has changed dramatically!! I didn't know that I used to talk like that when I was in the 8th grade!! LOL!! After being taught that this type of poem is definitely not uplifting, I started to stop writing poems like these!! Because this poem, right here, has probably brought some of you, Peeps, down and made you feel sad inside. I do apologize for that!! But, this poem did get your attention, didn't it, Peeps?! See!! That was the whole purpose for why I had wrote this poem in the 8th grade!! I wanted attention, and this poem gave me that!! (I had openly read this poem aloud in my English class after writing it!! Many people had liked it and said that it was deep!!)

So, Peeps, this is a lesson for all of you who loves to write poems!! Try to steer away from writing poems like this one (above)!! But, if you really must, go ahead at your own risk!! Make sure you make it clear to your readers whether or not the poem is about you and if it's true or false!! Because many people will take poems like these seriously!! Well, Peeps, I'll talk to you next week!!

*Remember*~Resist a temptation to take shortcuts of any kind.

Your, "Dialectical" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Princess Caspian

Here's My baby brother Jabari!!!

Look at him trying to act innocent!!

And here's a picture with me and

Jabari!!! We had a lotta fun with

this take!!!

And here's my man Ben Barnes!!!

I LOVE this Layout!! The prefect

title for it is: Looking for me?!

Here's a better out-look on it!!

Isn't he cute!!? ENJOY!!!

The Forbidden Word.......

What Up Peeps!!!!

Observing is how I take note in school now-a-days!! I have noticed something that needs to be brought out to the world!!! Like, for instance, the FORBIDDEN WORD!!! Now, what is the "Forbidden Word"?-you ask. Well, to be quite candid with you, it's the "N" word. Please, Peeps, don't ask me what that "N" word is.....Let's just say that it's very racial and has something to deal with the past. (Slaves) Well, every now and then, I hear an African American say this word to their friends, as they pass by the hallway, like there's no tomorrow!! Peeps, I don't get it!!! When a Caucasian person says the "N" word, EVERY African American gets mad!!! But, when they say it themselves, {African Americans} nobody gets offended!!!

I somehow question these kids these days!!! {Chuckle} I laugh because I'm a kid, myself!!! But, I'm just really embarrassed when they {African Americans} say this word!!! It's bad enough that we're already in a school with majority Caucasian!!! {Not that there's anything wrong with that!!! I just want a VARIETY!!!} And to hear them say that word....makes me cringe each time!!! That word is nothing to be proud of!!! In fact, it's VERY offensive!!! To ANY of you who are reading this post and DOES use that word....please take the time to stop and think about what you're saying!!! These kids now-a-days are using this word as a substitution for the words, "Friend", "Buddy", or even "Amigo"!!! It's insane!!! I personally don't think our ancestors would be too happy for us using that word out of context or for a different meaning!!! {African Americans}

I bet some of you adults are probably wondering why kids act the way they do now-a-days!!!........So do I!!! Oh!!! And by the way, I'm most described as really mature for my age!!! LOL!!! So, yeah!!! I observe my surroundings alot!!! I just want the world to have my take on the "Forbidden Word" !!! I try really hard to give out the best advice I possibly can to everyone!!! Some of these kids who do use that word, probably don't even know where that word ORIGINALLY came from!!! And that's quite sad!! In fact, I partially blame the parents of the children using that word!!! Because they haven't taught their child anything about that word and where it came from!!! It's just very sad!!! And some kids pick up that word FROM their parents!!! Which is even MORE sad!!! I am definitely quite thankful, If I do say so myself, for the parents that I have!!! I'm at least lucky enough to have parents that teach me these kind of things!! Just keep these words in mind for those of you who do use the "Forbidden Word"!! And for those who don't....SPREAD THE WORD!!!

Well, Peeps, I'm off to observe the world once more!!! I'll talk to you guys later!!!
*Remember*~You will be coming into fortune.

Your "Observant" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Princess Caspian

This is who I am.......and Nobody or anything can change that!!!

What Up Peeps!!!

As I am in High School, I have noticed something that makes me, personally, feel uncomfortable and confused!!! First off, I should ask, when you were reading my blog entries and BEFORE you saw my pictures, did you think I was white?! (In better words: "Caucasian" ) Please be honest!!! Peeps, I don't get it!!! Sometimes, when people HEAR me, they actually thought that I was Caucasian!!! Just because I talk properly , have good grades, is in all Honors Classes, and has great manners doesn't mean that I'm Caucasian!!! I am an African-American, and I am proud of that!!!

I have a little story for you, Peeps!!! Back in the 8th grade, I used to know a guy in my band class. (Not Naming Names) And every time I saw him, he would give me a nickname!!! "OREO" I believe it was. Now, back at that time, I didn't understand. So, I would always go telling and asking my mom and dad what it had meant. They had told me that that person didn't know what they were talking about and they had told me to ignore him!!! But, of course, being only in the 8th grade, it was hard to ignore a person!!! They kept bugging me until I asked him what "OREO" had stood for!! And why he had called me that. He had told me this, "Because, you are black on the outside and white on the inside!" When he said this, I had felt completely flourished and embarrassed all at once!!! Now that I look back on that day, I've been questioning many things on all sorts of levels!!! Do people just look outside of a persons' personality? Who are racist? Why are they racist? Should I act this way or that way in this society? Do people consider me Caucasian or African-American on a day-to-day basis? Why do I feel alienated when I'm around other African-Americans?!

I must say, being in a school with majority Caucasian and Latinos(as), it's quite weird at times to be either the only African-American or the few in just one classroom!!! But, the question is, do I feel more comfortable being around Caucasian people than African-Americans?! As I'm questioning myself this, I'm leaning to the answer, "Yes"!! But, the reason why is because they (SOME) are sooo different from me!!! .......Or, am I different from them?! I don't curse, I use good manners, and I have crushes on Caucasian people!!! (Which, I can't control!!) Other African-Americans that I've encountered are the direct opposite!! But, does that mean that I'm being racist towards other African-Americans? This question is easy to answer, "NO!!! Not at all!!" So, why am I different from the rest of the "Pack"? Is it just my lifestyle that has shaped me to who I am today?! Or, do I just want to be different?!

Honestly, Peeps, I don't know!!! If you know the reason why, please let me know!!! These are questions that I may or may not understand when I'm older!! All I know, is that this is who I am, Peeps!!! I'm not trying to be fake here. This is who I am...and nobody or anything can change that!!! I hope, Peeps, that you can accept me for who I really am!! Well, I'll talk to you, Peeps, next week!!

*Remember*~The greatest effort is not concerned with results.

Your "Alienated" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Princess Caspian

Music Everywhere

What Up Peeps!!!

Poem Background:This poem is about me finding out and learning from my Dad, that there's music everywhere!!! I had written this poem when I was in the 8th grade!!! So, BARE WITH ME, Peeps!!! LOL!! In this poem, I give you a hint of what I wanted to be when I get older!! Now, that I look back on it, to this day, I still want to fulfill that dream!!! So, here's my poem, Music Everywhere, where you'll hear the unfolded truth when I was in the 8th grade!!! Enjoy!!
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Music Everywhere
Today, my dad told me that music
is everywhere.
It's made everywhere.
For examples;
Water dripping,
Wind blowing,
Pots and pans banging,
Doors slamming,
And those are just a few.
I've been think'n about it all day
today.
Somethin's tellin me that that advice
dad told me,
is gonna be with me for the rest of
my life.
It's like a message to my life.
I've been think'n 'bout it long and hard.
Do you think my music career will
strive on?
I could be.....
famous one day for my musical
talent.
I think I am gonna strive to be
famous.
Wouldn't it be cool?
I'd meet Stevie Wonder,
Alicia Keys,
Beyonce,
India Arie,
and even Sanjaya: I'm madly in Luv w/
him!!
But, until then.....
I gotta do the basics.
I'm gonna stick with playing the
trombone.
And maybe,
even go into singing.
Until then, I'm gonna lay low.
Then I'll become famous.
You'll see!

Written By:
Sanjaya
A.K.A
Saidah Wilson
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So, what are you're thoughts from this poem?! I think, after writing it, that I really did {and still do} want to prove to people out there, that I WILL be famous!! I have something to prove to people, and I'm not afraid to show it!! This was also the time when I had a HUGE crush on Sanjaya, by the way!! LOL!! This is also a great poem to show that you learn something new everyday!!! And some things you learn, may stick with you for the rest of your life!!!

Oh!!! Peeps, before I go, I must tell you this: School Football season is already here!!! And {groan} I have to perform on some of those football games!!! So, if you don't hear from me on a Saturday, just know that you'll hear from me on a Sunday, or possibly a weekday!!! (I will be having SOME Saturday rehearsals and Competitions at Marching Band!!) So, don't think that I've forgotten about you, Peeps!!! Because I most definitely didn't!! Well, I best be going now!!!

*Remember*~"Winner winner. Chicken dinner."~21

Your "Learning Everyday" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Princess Caspian