Adulthood

Adulthood

Went missing for

several years.

Life had went through

a fermentation period. 

Where did it go?

Who authorized it to leave?

Autopilot became

a regular thing.

Smiling on the outside-

but dying a little more each day.

Watching it in everyone else,

but it had left me,

or I had left it

years ago.

Faith and Spirit crushed

as Autopilot succeeds.

Stuck in a hole that was

never once foretold.

No ladder,

No rope.

As I’m in this hole,

my shoes start to sink

into this mud filled

with maggots and worms.

This thing that

I had lost is so far gone

to the point where

I can’t see it.

I can’t feel it.

I can’t even conceive it anymore.

Is it completely gone?

Is it near?

Please,

Please come back to me.

I think

I might

have lost it.

I lost my dream.