The Rent is Up

What Up Peeps!!!

The rent is up for the house that I'm living in right now. We're in the process of packing things up. (very slowly, that is!) We have to be out of this house by the end of May-which is perfect timing because that's when me and Dizz get out of school. About a month-to 2 months ago, we were filled with "showings" for this house. A showing is when you let a family schedule in time to come see your house to see if they want dibbs on it next! {chuckle} I hated showings!!! It would always be after school, and that's when I'm busy doing homework and studying! It was awful. But, now the showings have slowed down and now we're looking for a house! There's a house literally 2 doors down that is up for grabs! There's also another house up for grabs....only it's across the street in our development. (We live in a gated community! When I first moved to this house, I thought that people living in this development were rich!) My parents are still deciding on which house to take.

Wow! This house is full of memories that are too strong to just let go. This was the house where I was finally over Bhavin-who is now my ex, but is still my friend. This was the house that I came home to when I was going through that whole "Alex Kalos Phase". (I'll tell you about that later.) {chuckle} This was the house where I had a crush on Gerard Butler, Jamie Kennedy, Taylor Lautner, Josh Hutcherson, Scott Michael Foster, Jackson Hurst, Seth Green, and now Andy Samberg!! {tear} This was the house where I found out that Michael Jackson had passed away. My family had gathered around in the family room and we saw Michael Jackson's tribulation-which was aired WORLDWIDE. This was the house that I got my very first laptop at! This is the house where I've become stronger and have grown up since the first time I came here! This is the house where me and Dizz had watched SNL and have become a big fan of it! This is the house where me and Dizz had listened to our The Lonely Island CD and the Hot Rod soundtrack on FULL BLAST and danced to it in the family room while our parents were at work! This is the house where Dizz and I have become close in our sister-relationship! This house holds soo many memories......

Now that I think about it, I'm really going to miss this house! The good news is that I'm going to be in a new house soon where I can make even MORE memories! It's funny how many memories one contains in one lifetime. Memories of experience, love, life, and most importantly-happiness. I think I'm ready to open up my memory box for this next house! And I'll make sure that you'll be part of the fun!

Well Peeps, I'm trying very hard to make more blog posts for you guys! I've literally been busy with school! Let me tell you, if you're in AP, JUNIOR year is the hardest year of high school! I know because I'm in AP and it's been a hectic year for me!! But, the school year is almost over and I'm friggin excited about it!! Well Peeps, I better go! I'll talk to you guys later!

*Remember*~Before an evening of romance, turn off the cell phone.

Your "Moving Along" Friend,

Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A ~Mrs. Samberg~

Swirlz+Dizz

What Up Peeps!!!

As some of you may know, I have a HUGE crush on Andy Samberg! But, what you may not know is that my sister, Hanifa, has a huge crush on Andy as well! Actually, thanks to Andy Samberg, me and Hanifa's relationship has grown tighter than ever before! I would like to admit that Hanifa is my best friend! She knows me more than anyone else in the world. We grew up together for 9 years now. I say that because she is 4 years younger than me. And though siblings hardly ever get along, me and Hanifa's relationship is different! I honestly can say that I can't live without her! {chuckle} I question myself sometimes. Wondering how the heck I had lived my life for 4 years without Hanifa! 4 YEARS!!! That's too long for me! But, of course, the situation was that I am my parents first-born child. For those 4 years, I had never thought of having another sibling in my life. Boy, was I in for a surprise!!

Now-a-days, on the weekends, me and Hanifa LOVE to watch Hot Rod and SNL together! We also love to listen to The Lonely Island and our Hot Rod soundtrack! Basically, ANYTHING having to deal with Andy Samberg, we love to watch it together! Me and Hanifa has grown such a special bond that we have created nicknames for each other! My nickname is "Swirlz" and Hanifa's is "Dizz"! Every now-and-then, we'll refer to each other as "Kimosaby" from the hit SNL Digital Short: Laser Cats 5. Also, me and Dizz really want to become famous! Of course, you guys have always known that I want to become a famous singer and poet. But, Dizz wants to be a comedian/actress/cellist. We both want to appear on SNL! Well, I just want to host SNL while Dizz wants to be part of the cast of SNL! Me and Dizz love to hang out and have fun. (well, that's a given!) We pretty much love to do everything together!!

I would like to take a moment to thank Allah for having Hanifa come into my life and being my sister!! Allah only knows what my life would have been like without her! {chuckle} She brings out the 'fun' in me! I'm soo thankful to have her in my life! And I'd like to proudly state that she will be in high school with me NEXT YEAR!! Though I will be a Senior and she will be a Freshman, we will hang out together like there's no tomorrow. Our school WILL know who the Wilson sisters are come next year. LOSNL!! I can't wait!!

So, I ask you today if you could ever imagine yourself and your sibling being best friends?! Though it may sound weird, it is possible! I do see myself, 10 years from now, hanging out with Dizz just like now-a-days. I am very glad to have her!!

*Remember*~There's a witness in every footstep you take.

Your "Thankful" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A. ~Mrs. Samberg~

In Love With The Enemy (An Archetypes Poem)

What Up Peeps!!!

POEM BACKGROUND: This poem was made when I was a a Freshmen in High School. It was about my first high school crush! Ah yes. I remember it now. His name was Alex Bradley. At the time, I had a HUGE celebrity crush on Mitchel Musso....and I was utterly convinced that Alex looked just like him! {He really does though! No lie!} {reminiscing} I remember telling him that I liked him....and he turned me down-TWICE!! Yeah. I liked that boy twice in one year-that's how hot I thought he was! I wrote this poem after ONE of the rejections! (I honestly can't remember which rejection it was! Freshmen year was a blur to me!) This is my first Archetypes poem I have ever written. So, here's the poem, "In Love With The Enemy". Enjoy!!
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In Love With
The Enemy
(An Archetypes Poem)

When I first met you,
You were truly blue.

I thought you were my
rising sun, my garden, my tree
My ultimate remedy.

But now,
You are black.

You are now the desert,
the serpent, the Fall.
I can only call you by
gall.

When I seek to find green
and white,
You're nowhere in sight;
You are out of my light.

You have decided to be
My tyren.

You're the devil, the traitor,
the evil genius.
Kind of like Oedipus.

But, for some reason,
I still love you!

How can I be in love
with the enemy?
Am I too blind to see,
That you're clearly way too
mean to me?
Is it because you're my Sea?
Timelessness and eternity?

I guess it's because you're
The Devil.

You are the charming fiend,
You give people what you
think they deserve.

And I....
I am the librarian.
And the nurturer.

The devil and the librarian can
never mix.
You can question this,
just for kicks!

So now,
I must move on from this
lunetic,
I feel sick
From this pick
That I once called
My Love.

So Long,
My Love,
My Enemy,
My Devil,
My So-Called Best Friend,

So Long
&
Good-Bye!

Written By:
Saidah Wilson A.K.A Mrs. Musso

Dedicated To:
Alex Bradley A.K.A
Oliver, A.K.A
My 1st High School Crush
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So, what did you think about the poem? Pretty raw feelings there, huh? Yeah. It was evident that I still loved him after I wrote this poem. My feelings were soo strong for Alex back then, that I lost sight of the big picture there! He literally took advantage of me because I liked him soo much! No matter how much he had made me mad, my hormones had found another way for me to forgive and like him again. But, this poem is very deep. I love the language I had used throughout this poem! And I was a Freshmen who wrote this! That's pretty good....if I do say so myself! I like how in the end, I say, "So Long" twice. This corresponds to me not really wanting to say good-bye to Alex, my enemy, but, my concious tells me over and over again that it's for the best! The similies and metaphors are perfect to a tea in this poem!

This poem was written when I was in Shadow Mountain. I've moved since then-to a new house and school! Me and Alex Bradley are friends on MySpace. And last time I saw him was last January during Honor Band. I'll admit-when I saw him, I had then remembered why I had fallen for him twice in one year! Yes-I still do have a crush on him! And I always will, whether I like it or not because Alex is my 1st High School Crush-there will ALWAYS be a liking for my 1st High School Crush! I haven't seen nor talked to him since then. But, hopefully I can chat with him soon on MySpace!

Well Peeps, I better go! The goal for this year is to get you guys up-to-date on my life because there's still loads of things that I have to talk to you about! I'll talk to you guys later!

*Remember*~Mental activity keeps you busy at this time.

Your "Reminicent" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A ~Mrs. Samberg~

This picture below is of my

backyard, looking up! Once again,

I was addicted to taking pictures

of the sun! LOL!!

Isn't it beautiful?! This next

picture is of our orange tree,

up close. Some of the oranges

that you will see are green

because they are not ripe yet!

Believe it or not, but this orange

tree inspired me to name my blog

after it! Now, these next 2 pictures

was obviously taken when I was

bored! Can you guess what these

images are?!

If you think that these 2 pictures

are of my eye in the dark, then

you're right! Like I said, I was

very bored that day and decided

to experiment! LOL!! I guess I was

right-my eyes are brown in lighting!

Enjoy!!

Henry David Thoreau and Maya Angelou

What Up Peeps!!!

So, my English teacher, Mrs. Murphy-Tick, has left my class with reading the book Walden, by Henry David Thoreau, and doing our author study. I chose my author study to be Maya Angelou. I had partied like a rock star all winter break, and now that I have school next week, it's time for me to get busy! It's hard to get back to work after a long vacation-I'm not gonna lie! That's why I'm getting to work on reading and studying now so that way I can get back into that mode again.

As I'm reading Walden, I'm starting to get to know Henry David Thoreau a lot better. I'm starting to understand where he's coming from. As of right now, I'm on chapter 4-Sounds. His theories are very profound and easily believable because he gives soo many examples to his cause. Because I'm soo gullible, I am hanging on to every word he is saying. He brings forth beautiful imagery which coincides with his diction. It's like I'm actually there with him-which helps me understand the text even more! His theories not only bring out facts, but, it's also starting to make me question our society and how we are living! If he was alive today, he'd be very disappointed! His theory is, "Simplicity, simplicity, simplicity!" He teaches us how to not be soo materialistic and to live in the moment! I know for sure that I don't live in the moment! I'm always thinking about tomorrow, or next week, or even next year! It's hard to live by Thoreau's theories-which is sad, to say the least! If he heard all of these things that we do today, like plastic surgery, or working 24/7, he would just die with disgust! I'm completely on his side with this one! It's just ridiculous!!

On a different note, I'm getting to know another person also! Maya Angelou! She is my complete inspiration on writing poems! She is absolutely amazing! Right now, I'm reading her book, I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings. I'm only on the 2nd chapter and I can say that it's getting good! Her words are soo fluid and vivid....it's just perfect! And her imagery is to die for! The way how she describes the morning air at the Store, for example, is like you're actually there! And she spices it up with her diction-which makes an ordinary place or object twice as better than it actually is! I've read a little bit about her life-which is I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings because it's an autobiography. And I think that she is a strong and brave woman. Going through soo many hardships like she did can break anyone down! I won't tell you too much details because I want you to see for yourself! She is an amazing writer/poet! And I'm glad she is my inspiration!

So, that's it on what's going on in school-work wise. Oh Peeps! There's soo much more stuff that I have to tell you-I've just been soo busy lately! I know! It's the same excuse everybody has been using now-a-days! But, I'm serious: what with all of school and all....there's hardly any downtime anymore. And if there was any, it's sleep! And I know all of you can relate with me on that subject! Well Peeps, I gotta go! I'll talk to you guys later!

*Remember*~It is sometimes better to travel hopefully than to arrive.

Your "Getting To Know Great Authors" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Mrs. Lautner/Maslow/Samberg
(Pst-The highlighted last name is Andy Samberg! and I like him the most out of the 3! I really like him a lot! Those of you who know me well, know that he's all I ever talk about! He's my main crush!)

FINALS are FINALLY over!! (for now!)

What Up Peeps!!!

So, last week, on Wednesday and Thursday, North Canyon High School had to take finals. Ugh! I hate taking the finals!! It always causes stress, tiredness, and premature gray hair!! And we have to do this twice every school year. Yeah. It gets really old, really quick!! Some students go on a rampage about either that class or not even caring about their finals and just winging it!! But, this year, for me, I cared A LOT about my finals!!! The 2 classes that I needed the most studying in was Physics and American History!!

So, I began a long journey of studying my butt off on Tuesday night and Wednesday night!! On Tuesday night, I started studying for my English and Physics final. I had studied from 9 p.m-1 a.m. I call it a "half all-nighter"! Come Wednesday, I was pumped and ready for those 2 finals!! We had a half day that day, so, when I got home, I ate lunch, took a small nap and then began a LONG strenuous study session!! (Try saying that 10x fast! LOL!!) It had began from 3:30 p.m-3:00 a.m!! Some may call call me crazy, but, I call myself determined. I was EXTREMELY tired came 3 a.m. I was studying for Spanish, American History, and Pre-Calc. I had literally given up at 3:00 a.m and had forced myself to get some sleep before my alarm clock would go off at 4:50 a.m for me to get ready for school! When I got to school on Thursday morning, I was ready for ANYTHING to come my way!! Determination and nervousness were the only 2 emotions that I felt throughout these 2 days!! Being a teenager, having JUST 2 emotions, and no more, at the same time is a rare occasion. It's practically a blessing!! But, were these 2 emotions worth it?!

Peeps, did you think ALL of that studying was necessary for a smart girl like me?! {chuckle} If you ask me, I would've looked at you and smiled and said, "You can NEVER study enough for a particular subject in life, because there's a lot to learn in each subject! So many details left out of this textbook and that textbook! We must continue to study to enrich our knowledge and bring forth NEW theories to test!" Do you want to know what my final results were?! Here they are:

Subject,Final, Semester Grade:

IB Spanish 5, 82.00 B, 88.04 B
AP English Lang 5, 74.00 C, 83.02 B
Amer History 1, 85.00 B, 81.32 B
Pre-Calc Hon 1, 92.00 A ,86.90 B
Physics 1, 69.00 D, 76.56 C

So, did I study hard enough?! I think my quarter grades had helped out my Physics grade A LOT!! So, I had passed Science this quarter with a C instead of a D-like last year!! Thank Allah!! It was a lot of stress-I'm not gonna lie!! And with this premature gray hair on my bangs, I have a nice momentum from this experience! I had learned a very valuable lesson so far this year: focus on your QUARTER grades so that way you don't have to be too stressed out come finals! It'll help you out in the long run! Well Peeps, I gotta go!! HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!

*Remember*~Your most memorable dream will come true.

Your "Excited" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Mrs. Butler/Kennedy/Lautner/Maslow (Yeah. I don't have a surreal crush on Josh Hutcherson anymore!! What can I say, my hormones are picky!! LOL!!)

Prayer To Laughter

What Up Peeps!!!

POEM BACKGROUND: This poem is comical, yet giving thanks to laughter. You can't help but to smile when you read this poem. It's written by John Agard. I love to read this poem because it makes me feel good inside!! It makes you feel thankful for even having laughter in the first place. This is one of those poems that really makes you think. So, here is the poem, "Prayer To Laughter"!! Enjoy!!
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Prayer To Laughter

O Laughter
giver of relaxed mouths

you who rule our belly with tickles
you who come when not called
you who can embarrass us at times

send us stitches in our sides
shake us till the water reaches our eyes
buckle our knees till we cannot stand

we whose faces are grim and shattered
we whose hearts are no longer hearty
O Laughter we beg you

crack us up
crack us up

Written By: John Agard
Selected By: Saidah Wilson
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So, what did you think of this poem?! I like how this poem was set to be a praise to laughter! You know, we be soo busy in our lives that we never take a moment and be grateful for what we already have. Even for the little things-like laughter. But, having such little things can make a difference in a persons' life. Amazing how that works!!

If YOU have a poem that you'd like to be featured on my blog, contact me through my e-mail, which is:
greenorangesinger7@gmail.com,
OR you can MySpace or Facebook me anytime!! (Pst-look me up as: Saidah Kamaria Wilson), OR if you go to North Canyon High School, you can talk to me about it personally!! Well Peeps, me and my sister are about to make some brownies now and they're calling my name as I type this!! I'll talk to you guys later!!

*Remember*~Insults must be written in sand and compliments carved in stone.

Your "Thankful" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Mrs. Butler/Hutcherson/Kennedy/Lautner

This picture (shown below) is of

the front of our 1st house, here

in Arizona! Well, rather, it's a

picture of our gate leading to our

back yard!!

If you look up, you'll see this view:

Isn't that beautiful?! As you can

see, I love taking pictures of the

sun and it's rays!! Now, as we go

inside the house, and go upstairs

and look down at our balcony, this

is what you'll see:

That's a beautiful view, isn't it?!

I like how everything is all nice and

orderly!! Especially the couches!!

If you come back dowstairs and

look up from where you were, here

is a view of the balcony:

That's a pretty big balcony-isn't

it?! Well, I hope you enjoyed

this little mini tour of my first

house, here in Arizona!!

The Untold Story Behind Me and Bhavin

What Up Peeps!!!

So, as I've promised last entry, I'm going to fill you in on my second boyfriend last year-Bhavin. Ok. So, you already know how Bhavin had presented to me that he had a crush on me after band class. Well, when he told me, I was completely shocked. And then, all of the sudden, he had asked me to the dance that was coming up in like, 2 weeks! I was OVERWHELMED!!! I told him that I'll think about it and I went on to my next class. That was when I knew it. That I was in a "fast-forward" relationship!!! Bhavin was moving FAST!!! Almost too fast. Overall in our relationship, I was overwhelmed. Why?! Because I've never been in a relationship like this before. I've always been in a "slow paced" relationship. Boy, was I about to encounter an emotional roller-coaster.

Bhavin and I had communicated through phone calls, texting, chatting on Facebook, and hanging out during lunchtimes. He would call me everyday after school!!! EVEN when my parents were at home. Now, since I wasn't allowed to date yet, I would text Bhavin-saying that he couldn't call right now because my parents were at home. He LOVED to call me on the phone! He, in fact, liked calling me more than texting. When I would tell him that it was a bad time to call me, he would beg for a little bit, and then give up when he realized that I wasn't giving in. When he called me, we would talk for almost an hour before my parents got home!!! On our phone calls, he would tell me all of his fantasies.....which, between me and you, was quite fast-forward!!

During lunchtimes at school, he would meet me at my normal spot at lunch and we'd sit and talk before my friends would come along. {chuckle} I remember the first time when he met up with me at lunch. He had KISSED my hand like I was Queen Sheba!!! I've NEVER been treated like that before in my entire life. I will tell you peeps now that Bhavin is the first guy I've ever kissed. Let's just say that you can learn so much about a person through their kiss. Of course, we had hit a few bumps in the road-but, had patched it up quite quickly.

I never told you this, but, Bhavin had-and still does have-a HUGE crush on my best friend, Kelsey Abel. Even when he was dating me. This situation had gotten out of hand one day when Bhavin had told me that he couldn't make it to the dance because he was having money issues. But, Kelsey had told me that he had asked her to the dance!!! Luckily for me, Kelsey had turned him down. But, I was peeved off!!! After that situation, my heart just couldn't take it anymore. So, I broke up with him that afternoon through a text. I was soo furious with him that I couldn't even go throughout the rest of my day without breaking up with him!! In the text, I told him not to ever contact me ever again and to leave me alone. He didn't text back-which told me that he really didn't care. If he did, he would've called me and would have left me thousands of messages on my phone.

I had handled the situation of being alone the only way I knew how-to listen to my OneRepublic CD on full blast and cry my heart out. Yes, I had felt better, but, it did hurt me really bad. Earlier that day, Kelsey had showed me a text from Bhavin that was sent to her. It had said, "I love you". That had said it all. I became depressed for a little while and then started to get over him because of my starting crush of Abheshik. (which, hopefully I can tell you about later!) That's what I always do. Once my heart gets broken, I'm always finding myself falling in love again!! (Those darn hormones!! LOL!!) So, Bhavin had dated a girl right after me-who, honestly, I thought he could do WAY better than THAT!! But, nonetheless, I got over him-slowly, but surely! It turned out that I had won the "war"! Kelsey had told me just a couple of months back that Bhavin told her, "First, Saidah doesn't want me and now you don't!"

Now, me and Bhavin are great friends. Altogether, me and Bhavin went out for ONLY a month!! Can you believe it?! A MONTH!! Time had flown ever so slowly when I went out with him!! I can tell, at times, that he doesn't want me to be taken because when I told him that I had a crush on someone and was going to tell that guy how I felt about him, Bhavin had a sad look upon his face!! Oh yeah!! I had totally won that war!! LOL!! He still has a crush on Kelsey-that boy just won't let up on her!! But, it's all good!! Well, Peeps, I best be going now!! I apologize for making these blog posts soo long!! But, you know how I do!! I'll talk to you guys later!!

*Remember*~When you're having a bad day, always remember that there's always tomorrow!

Your "Experimenting" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson A.K.A Mrs. Butler/Hutcherson/Kennedy/Lautner (Yeah. Since I last talked to you, I fell in love with 3 more new guys!!-as you can see from my nickname!!)

The Untold Story Behind Me and Andrew Craven

What Up Peeps!!!

So, I had somehow left you out of "the loop" of my love life. I do apologize greatly for that, Peeps! Honest-to-truth, I have been very busy lately with my schooling and the average "typical drama" for a 16 year-old. Well, today, I want to take the time to fill you in on one of my past boyfriends!! {chuckle} Yeah, there's been more than one this past school year. His name is Andrew Craven! Remember him?! I had only mentioned him to you about 2 times. Well, when we were going out.....it really didn't feel like we were going out. That was the MAIN reason why I had broken up with him after 2 months of us going out. We never went anywhere together. We didn't hold hands or even hug for that matter. It was a very "Rated G" relationship.

But, there was a good side to having Andrew as my boyfriend. We would always send messages to each other through MySpace and had texted each other every day. That was our communication!!! It kinda bugged me that we didn't meet up during lunch times. I remember it now. I was always sitting by myself for about half of lunch period, and then the second half, my friends would show up and we'd hang out for the remainder of the lunch period. To put it plainly-our relationship went NOWHERE!!! It was boring!!! We acted more like friends towards each other than acting like we were going out!!! Then, something had happened!! A guy came up to me after band one day and had CONFESSED his love for me!!! That guy's name was Bhavin. (I promise I will tell you all about him next blog entry!!) After he told me, I was completely shocked!! No one has ever come up to me before and told me personally that they have a crush on me!!! And, the funny thing about it was that he knew that I was "going out" with Andrew!! So, what was I to do?!

I did what any desperate girl who needs love would do. I said yes to Bhavin! EVEN THOUGH I was still going out with Andrew!! Now, before you throw your hands up in the air and call me a "cheater", just know this one thing: I was planning on breaking up with Andrew the next day. But, fate had other plans for me....or Andrew. He was sick that next day and for the rest of the week. Now Peeps, you can throw your hands up in the air and call me a "cheater" because I ended up breaking up with Andrew once he came back to school that next week. But, word must've got out of me breaking up with Andrew that day because right when I came up to him, with my speech ready, to break up with him, he told me that he already knew because someone had told him. (What?! I may have told a few people beforehand that I was going to break up with Andrew that day! Like, I don't know, a whole class worth!!!) I had asked him if he was sad about it and he said that he wasn't. He said that our relationship was NO BIG DEAL!!!

No big deal?! Geez, that was harsh!! I at least thought that we had a little connection in our relationship! So, that was it on me and Andrew's relationship. We are now currently friends, and me and my friend, Kelsey Abel, thinks that he still likes me!! Earlier this year, I was considering asking Andrew back out-but, my friends had pleaded me not to!!! (They all hate him!!! They all think he's annoying.) Sometimes, in Marching Band, he does get on my nerves....but, I've learned to realize that that's just how Andrew is, and I have to accept that!! Well Peeps, that's it on the untold story between me and Andrew Craven!! I gotta go!! I'll talk to you guys later!!!

*Remember*~Reward yourself with a special gift.

Your "Always In Love" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson A.K.A Mrs. SMF/Hutcherson/Hurst/Lautner