Adulthood
Went
missing for
several
years.
Life
had went through
a fermentation period.
Where
did it go?
Who authorized it to leave?
Autopilot
became
a
regular thing.
Smiling
on the outside-
but dying a little more each day.
Watching
it in everyone else,
but it
had left me,
or I
had left it
years ago.
Faith
and Spirit crushed
as
Autopilot succeeds.
Stuck
in a hole that was
never once foretold.
No
ladder,
No rope.
As I’m
in this hole,
my
shoes start to sink
into
this mud filled
with maggots and worms.
This
thing that
I had
lost is so far gone
to the
point where
I can’t see it.
I can’t
feel it.
I can’t even conceive it anymore.
Is it
completely gone?
Is it near?
Please,
Please come back to me.
I think
I might
have lost it.
I lost my dream.