Adulthood

Adulthood

Went missing for

several years.

Life had went through

a fermentation period. 

Where did it go?

Who authorized it to leave?

Autopilot became

a regular thing.

Smiling on the outside-

but dying a little more each day.

Watching it in everyone else,

but it had left me,

or I had left it

years ago.

Faith and Spirit crushed

as Autopilot succeeds.

Stuck in a hole that was

never once foretold.

No ladder,

No rope.

As I’m in this hole,

my shoes start to sink

into this mud filled

with maggots and worms.

This thing that

I had lost is so far gone

to the point where

I can’t see it.

I can’t feel it.

I can’t even conceive it anymore.

Is it completely gone?

Is it near?

Please,

Please come back to me.

I think

I might

have lost it.

I lost my dream.

Inside My Mind

Inside My Mind

Silence.

A poet’s music.

Dare I say,

ecstasy.

Fresh air-

a body’s sweet liquor.

Free for all to whom

may get drunk.

Breeze makes the

nipples hard and

hair on the arms

stand sharp.

Sun playing hide-and-seek

with the trees

seeks solace in the

magnitude of this world.

This is what one

craves to do

on their day off:

to Live.

Long Time, No See

What Up Peeps!!!

  It's been soo long....too long, hasn't it?! A lot has happened to me over the course of these past 5 months that if I was to even tell you all of the details, you probably wouldn't even believe me. Well, I will keep this brief, for it is alot! 

  First and foremost, I got a haircut! Short and sweet! I like it alot-I gotta say! Here's a photo of me and my new haircut:

        Second of all, I got a job at JC Penny! It's temporary, but that's ok because it's my first job EVER!! ;-)

  I just went to the eye doctor on Wednesday, and with the luck of my Dad's insurance, I get to have 2 NEW SPECS!!!! Totally awesome!!!!

  During these 5 months, I've been doing alot of soul searching. You know, finding myself, loving myself, and getting to know myself alot better. A huge event had happened to me over the summer that had changed me for the better! (Thank Allah!) That's all I can say on that portion of change in me! 

  Peeps, I hope you are all doing well and Happy Holidays! I'm gonna try to write to you more frequently-I've just been really busy lately! :-)

*Remember*~The book should be a ball of light in one's hand.

Your "Changed" Friend,

Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A ~OFFICIAL Mrs. Samberg~