Monday, 26 October 2009

The Untold Story Behind Me and Bhavin

What Up Peeps!!!

So, as I've promised last entry, I'm going to fill you in on my second boyfriend last year-Bhavin. Ok. So, you already know how Bhavin had presented to me that he had a crush on me after band class. Well, when he told me, I was completely shocked. And then, all of the sudden, he had asked me to the dance that was coming up in like, 2 weeks! I was OVERWHELMED!!! I told him that I'll think about it and I went on to my next class. That was when I knew it. That I was in a "fast-forward" relationship!!! Bhavin was moving FAST!!! Almost too fast. Overall in our relationship, I was overwhelmed. Why?! Because I've never been in a relationship like this before. I've always been in a "slow paced" relationship. Boy, was I about to encounter an emotional roller-coaster.

Bhavin and I had communicated through phone calls, texting, chatting on Facebook, and hanging out during lunchtimes. He would call me everyday after school!!! EVEN when my parents were at home. Now, since I wasn't allowed to date yet, I would text Bhavin-saying that he couldn't call right now because my parents were at home. He LOVED to call me on the phone! He, in fact, liked calling me more than texting. When I would tell him that it was a bad time to call me, he would beg for a little bit, and then give up when he realized that I wasn't giving in. When he called me, we would talk for almost an hour before my parents got home!!! On our phone calls, he would tell me all of his fantasies.....which, between me and you, was quite fast-forward!!

During lunchtimes at school, he would meet me at my normal spot at lunch and we'd sit and talk before my friends would come along. {chuckle} I remember the first time when he met up with me at lunch. He had KISSED my hand like I was Queen Sheba!!! I've NEVER been treated like that before in my entire life. I will tell you peeps now that Bhavin is the first guy I've ever kissed. Let's just say that you can learn so much about a person through their kiss. Of course, we had hit a few bumps in the road-but, had patched it up quite quickly.

I never told you this, but, Bhavin had-and still does have-a HUGE crush on my best friend, Kelsey Abel. Even when he was dating me. This situation had gotten out of hand one day when Bhavin had told me that he couldn't make it to the dance because he was having money issues. But, Kelsey had told me that he had asked her to the dance!!! Luckily for me, Kelsey had turned him down. But, I was peeved off!!! After that situation, my heart just couldn't take it anymore. So, I broke up with him that afternoon through a text. I was soo furious with him that I couldn't even go throughout the rest of my day without breaking up with him!! In the text, I told him not to ever contact me ever again and to leave me alone. He didn't text back-which told me that he really didn't care. If he did, he would've called me and would have left me thousands of messages on my phone.

I had handled the situation of being alone the only way I knew how-to listen to my OneRepublic CD on full blast and cry my heart out. Yes, I had felt better, but, it did hurt me really bad. Earlier that day, Kelsey had showed me a text from Bhavin that was sent to her. It had said, "I love you". That had said it all. I became depressed for a little while and then started to get over him because of my starting crush of Abheshik. (which, hopefully I can tell you about later!) That's what I always do. Once my heart gets broken, I'm always finding myself falling in love again!! (Those darn hormones!! LOL!!) So, Bhavin had dated a girl right after me-who, honestly, I thought he could do WAY better than THAT!! But, nonetheless, I got over him-slowly, but surely! It turned out that I had won the "war"! Kelsey had told me just a couple of months back that Bhavin told her, "First, Saidah doesn't want me and now you don't!"

Now, me and Bhavin are great friends. Altogether, me and Bhavin went out for ONLY a month!! Can you believe it?! A MONTH!! Time had flown ever so slowly when I went out with him!! I can tell, at times, that he doesn't want me to be taken because when I told him that I had a crush on someone and was going to tell that guy how I felt about him, Bhavin had a sad look upon his face!! Oh yeah!! I had totally won that war!! LOL!! He still has a crush on Kelsey-that boy just won't let up on her!! But, it's all good!! Well, Peeps, I best be going now!! I apologize for making these blog posts soo long!! But, you know how I do!! I'll talk to you guys later!!

*Remember*~When you're having a bad day, always remember that there's always tomorrow!

Your "Experimenting" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson A.K.A Mrs. Butler/Hutcherson/Kennedy/Lautner (Yeah. Since I last talked to you, I fell in love with 3 more new guys!!-as you can see from my nickname!!)

Tuesday, 20 October 2009

The Untold Story Behind Me and Andrew Craven

What Up Peeps!!!

So, I had somehow left you out of "the loop" of my love life. I do apologize greatly for that, Peeps! Honest-to-truth, I have been very busy lately with my schooling and the average "typical drama" for a 16 year-old. Well, today, I want to take the time to fill you in on one of my past boyfriends!! {chuckle} Yeah, there's been more than one this past school year. His name is Andrew Craven! Remember him?! I had only mentioned him to you about 2 times. Well, when we were going out.....it really didn't feel like we were going out. That was the MAIN reason why I had broken up with him after 2 months of us going out. We never went anywhere together. We didn't hold hands or even hug for that matter. It was a very "Rated G" relationship.

But, there was a good side to having Andrew as my boyfriend. We would always send messages to each other through MySpace and had texted each other every day. That was our communication!!! It kinda bugged me that we didn't meet up during lunch times. I remember it now. I was always sitting by myself for about half of lunch period, and then the second half, my friends would show up and we'd hang out for the remainder of the lunch period. To put it plainly-our relationship went NOWHERE!!! It was boring!!! We acted more like friends towards each other than acting like we were going out!!! Then, something had happened!! A guy came up to me after band one day and had CONFESSED his love for me!!! That guy's name was Bhavin. (I promise I will tell you all about him next blog entry!!) After he told me, I was completely shocked!! No one has ever come up to me before and told me personally that they have a crush on me!!! And, the funny thing about it was that he knew that I was "going out" with Andrew!! So, what was I to do?!

I did what any desperate girl who needs love would do. I said yes to Bhavin! EVEN THOUGH I was still going out with Andrew!! Now, before you throw your hands up in the air and call me a "cheater", just know this one thing: I was planning on breaking up with Andrew the next day. But, fate had other plans for me....or Andrew. He was sick that next day and for the rest of the week. Now Peeps, you can throw your hands up in the air and call me a "cheater" because I ended up breaking up with Andrew once he came back to school that next week. But, word must've got out of me breaking up with Andrew that day because right when I came up to him, with my speech ready, to break up with him, he told me that he already knew because someone had told him. (What?! I may have told a few people beforehand that I was going to break up with Andrew that day! Like, I don't know, a whole class worth!!!) I had asked him if he was sad about it and he said that he wasn't. He said that our relationship was NO BIG DEAL!!!

No big deal?! Geez, that was harsh!! I at least thought that we had a little connection in our relationship! So, that was it on me and Andrew's relationship. We are now currently friends, and me and my friend, Kelsey Abel, thinks that he still likes me!! Earlier this year, I was considering asking Andrew back out-but, my friends had pleaded me not to!!! (They all hate him!!! They all think he's annoying.) Sometimes, in Marching Band, he does get on my nerves....but, I've learned to realize that that's just how Andrew is, and I have to accept that!! Well Peeps, that's it on the untold story between me and Andrew Craven!! I gotta go!! I'll talk to you guys later!!!

*Remember*~Reward yourself with a special gift.

Your "Always In Love" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson A.K.A Mrs. SMF/Hutcherson/Hurst/Lautner

Tuesday, 15 September 2009

New Kid

What Up Peeps!!!

SONG BACKGROUND: So, I wrote this song when I first got here to Arizona....which was, like, 3 YEARS AGO!!!! I must admit, it's sorta corny-so, BARE WITH ME here! This song is basically about me coming into a new school and trying to figure out who I actually want to be. The reason for that thought process is because when you go to a new school, you have a choice-either you be yourself, or you change your personality! Wow! Come to think of it, this song is pretty deep!! So, here is the lyrics to the song, "New Kid"!! Enjoy!!
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New Kid
(random kids talking)
"Have you seen that girl?"
"I love her skirt!"
"She's very smart!"
"Yeah!"

(me singing)
"This is me.
I'm the new-ew kid.
I've found the key,
And I'm ready to begin......
again.
I've made a choice
I know who I'm gonna be......
Yeah!
I'm gonna be me-he-he!!"

CHORUS
"I'm the new kid!
I'm starting life again!
I don't wanna be nobody else.....
oh no!
I may change my hair
and I may change my style.
But inside......
I will still be me......
I'm the new kid!"

(me talking)
"Hey! I'm new!!"
"Oh yeah!"

(me singing)
"I'm kind of shy and get nervous."

(me talking)
"Ok....maybe a lot."

(me singing)
"I'm really quiet and really nice.
I get along with just about
any-body,
I won't do no harm to
no-body......
I just wanna be your
friend!"

CHORUS
"I'm the new kid!
I'm starting life again.
I don't wanna be nobody else....
oh no!
I may change my hair
and I may change my style.
But inside,
I will still be me......

BRIDGE
"Please,
don't make this hard,
I'm try'n
to fit in.
I just want to be a great
friend.
But, of a scale to 1-10,
I want......
A 10......"

CHORUS
"I'm the new kid!
I'm starting life again!
I don't wanna be nobody else...
oh no!
I may change my hair
and I may change my style.
But....
inside....
inside....
I'm still me......
Oh no!
I'm still me-ee-e
still meeee!

(me talking)
"Ha!
Oh yeah!

(me singing)
"I'm still me-ee"

"I'm the new kid now.....
I'm the new kid now.....
I'm the new kid now-ow-ow.....
Oh yeah!
I'm the new kid now.....
Oh no!
I'm the new kid
And I'm starting....
life....
again!!!"

Written By:
Saidah Wilson
A.K.A
Sanjaya

Sang By:
Saidah Wilson
A.K.A
Sanjaya
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So, what did you think of this song?! It's a little corny, I know!!! {chuckle} But, do keep in mind that I wrote this song 3 years ago!! I really like these lyrics. It tells you to just be yourself and be comfortable with who you are. I love keeping and making new friends, so that was highly expressed in this song. I gotta ask you something here, Peeps! And please be honest when you answer this for me: Do you think I'm a good song-writer?! Honestly, I don't know!!! That's why I'm asking YOU-as, of course, you are my audience as well as my friends!!

If you write songs yourself, and you'd like to see your lyrics on my blog, then please contact me through my e-mail, which is:
greenorangesinger7@gmail.com
Or, if you go to North Canyon High School, you can just talk to me about it anytime!!! Well, Peeps, I gotta go!! I'll talk to you guys later!!!

*Remember*~When there is a will, there is a way.

Your "Inspirational" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Mrs. SMF/Hutcherson/Hurst/Lautner (Notice the EXTREMELY long nickname!! LOL!!)






Tuesday, 1 September 2009

My baby brother, Jabari, at age 4!!!

What Up Peeps!!!

Jabari has just turned 4 last month on the 13th. He is now pretty much half my size-so, we can all agree that Jabari will be taller than me once he reaches his teenage years. LOL!! Now that Jabari is 4, his speech is getting better by the week!! When he is trying to say, "Sorry," he says, "Gawee!" He calls me, "Thai" and he calls Hanifa, "Thai-y!" His favorite show, as of right now, is Spongebob Squarepants. He also loves Mickey Mouse, Cars-the movie, and Go, Diego, Go! He loves to help my mom cook in the kitchen-which is fine, as long as his hands are clean!! LOL!! One of the things I find remarkable about Jabari, is that he LOVES broccoli!!! Sometimes, he orders my mom to cook him some broccoli!! He also loves to clean up-which makes me and Hanifa quite confused!! We both, on some occasions, do not like cleaning up at all!! Jabari is a very thoughtful and helpful little man! (I like to call him that!!)

Of course, there is a flip side!! Jabari can be very hard-headed at times. When somehow me or Hanifa get on his nerves, he spits on us all of the time!! Especially on Hanifa!! Sometimes, if me or Hanifa is talking maybe too much, Jabari will say, "Hush Thai/Thai-y!" He knows he loves telling people to be quiet. And sometimes when me or Hanifa get in trouble, he says, "Na Na Na Na Thai/Thai-y!!" Me and Hanifa hate it when he says this. I don't know why, but, it gets to us. Sometimes, Jabari demands to go on the computer, and if my mom and dad says no, he'll cry hysterically. He does get plenty of whoopins when he acts this way. For some reason, sometimes Jabari acts like he can get whatever he wants when he wants it! And for many cases-it won't go that way!! Of course, Jabari also has his temper, or rather, attitude. He'll sometimes say, "Fine mommy!!" or stomp of the stairs really loud, or give you this stare that's "supposedly" supposed to scare you!! Jabari just cracks me up when he does this!!

So, you've heard of the saying, "Terrible Two's" huh? Well, it now needs to be, "Fierce Four's" for the four year olds. Cause Jabari sure does think he's fierce when he wants to be-which makes him look really adorable!! He is my baby brother and I love him unconditionally!! {chuckle} I can't wait until he can be able to read this blog post!! It will be a memory to remember!! Well Peeps, I got to go!! You'll hear more from me later!!

*Remember*~Praise loudly, blame softly. -European Saying

Your "Descriptive" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Mrs. SMF/Hutcherson/Hurst (Notice the new and LONG nickname!!)

Friday, 31 July 2009

This picture (shown below)

is of me snap-shotting the

sky in full action in the

evening here in Arizona.

Isn't it beautiful?!



This next picture is of our first

house here in Arizona!! It's quite

big actually. Notice how the

the rooftop looks!


Aren't those sunrays beautiful?

This next picture is the front door

part of the house!! It looks like a

walk-way to a castle!!


This next picture was taken

inside of the house. It was the

kitchen area next to the living

room!

I had thought that it'd be a

great idea to have taken a

picture of this flower piece!

Enjoy!!!

Tuesday, 14 July 2009

My Dad's 39th Birthday!!!

What Up Peeps!!!

Well, yesterday was my dad's 39th birthday!!! I had soo much fun yesterday that I must admit....that was the best time I ever had out of this whole summer!!! Why?! Because Hanifa, Jabari, and I haven't been out much at all this whole summer!! It's sad...I know!! I have begged my parents, especially my mom, to let me go over to a friends house, any friend, just to let me get out of this house....though my mom had said yes, every time I'd ask her, she'd be heading off to work or wants me to stay home!!! It sucks, sorry to say!!! But, what can I do, right?!

Anyway, for my dad's birthday, we had went to Arriba first!! (A Mexican Restaurant) Boy, they hooked us up with those nachos that me and my mom had ordered!! LOL!! I recommend everyone and anyone to try it!! After that, we went to the Arizona Science Exhibit (or was it a Museum?!). It was completely awesome!! While I was there, I had seen my classmate named Barron!! (He's that guy I had told you about earlier this year that looks like Joe Jonas!) He had totally caught me off guard. He had volunteered there and he thought that I had looked familiar. So, he had tapped me on the shoulder while calling my name!! I was completely shocked, may I add.

After the Arizona Science Exhibit, we had all went to QT!! (Arizona is best known for the hot and arid heat!! QT is a gas station and a little store!! In that store, they have tons of slushies and soft drinks!) We (my family) had all bought a soft drink! I had gotten a green apple/white cherry slushie with a little bit of Sprite!! (I'm always the one to get the wild and funky colors in the family!) After that, we had went home and watched a movie called Defiance. I had fallen asleep on the last half bit of that movie...I was tired. At about 9 p.m, we had ordered from a restaurant called Macaroni Grill. We all shared a family sized Fettichini!! May I add, Fettichini is now one of my favorite meals!!

Once it came to my Dad's birthday cake, it had became a whole event! Both me and Hanifa had performed, "Happy Birthday" to our dad with our instruments!! (Hanifa played her Cello, while I played my Trombone!) Then, my dad had cut his slice of cake, and as he did that, I had presented my present to him!! It was a poem! (If you know me by now, that was no surprise!) It was a beautiful and funny poem that my dad enjoyed and loved!! After that, we had all ate our cake and the rest of the night was pretty laid back.

So, that was my dad's 39th birthday!! It was loads of fun and a memory to never be forgotten!! Well Peeps, there's more from me to come later. I'll talk to you guys later!!

*Remember*~Looks are deceiving.

Your "Relaxed and Giving" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Mrs. SMF (Notice the new nickname!!)

Wednesday, 1 July 2009

This picture (shown below) is

the side of our house in the


backyard!!





This next picture was a patch

of green clovers in our backyard!!

I found it to have been quite

interesting to take a picture

of!!




These next two pictures are

of my baby brother, Jabari,

playing in the backyard!!!

As you will see, he had a

lot of fun out there!!







Enjoy!!!

Tuesday, 16 June 2009

I Have A Dream

What Up Peeps!!!

POEM BACKGROUND: This poem was actually written by Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. It is really a speech that he had made in 1963 at the Civil Rights march in Washington D.C. This is a very popular speech that I'm pretty sure you guys have heard of in your lifetime!! I had chosen this speech to share with you because it is very inspiring and powerful in every way. I love this speech! It shows a lot of pride and dignity beyond belief. It goes to show that if you can dream it, and you believe it, you can achieve it!! So, here is the speech/poem "I Have A Dream"!! Enjoy!!!
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I Have A Dream
I say to you today, my friends...
I still have a dream. It is a dream
deeply rooted in the American dream.
I have a dream that one day this nation will
rise up
and live out the true meaning of its creed.
We hold these truths to be self-evident
that all men are created equal.
I have a dream
that one day on the red hills of Georgia
the sons of former slaves and the sons
of former slave-owners will be able
to sit down together at the table of brotherhood.

I have a dream
that one day, even the state of Mississippi,
a state sweltering with the heat of injustice,
sweltering with the heat of oppression,
will be transformed into an oasis
of freedom and justice.
I have a dream
that my four little children will one day
live in a nation where they will not
be judged by the color of their skin
but by the content of their character.
I have a dream today!

I have a dream
that one day down in Alabama, with
its vicious
racists, with its governor having his lips
dripping with the words of interposition
and mullification, one day, right here in Alabama
little black boys and black girls will be able
to join hands with little white boys
and white girls as sisters and brothers.
I have a dream today!

I have a dream...
This is our hope.
This is the faith that I go
back to the South with...

Let freedom ring...!
Allow freedom to ring...!
from every mountainside...!
from every peak...
from every village and every hamlet...
we will be able to join and sing...
"Free at last, free at last;
thank God Almighty, we are free at last."


Spoken By: Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.
Speech made at Civil Rights march
on Washington, D.C., 1963
Selected By: Saidah Wilson
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So, what did you think of this speech?! Pretty powerful, huh?! I think Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.'s speech did come true! Though there is still a linger of racism in this world, I have realized that this world has progressed since 1963. I mean, really! We now have a Muslim African-American President-the first African-American president EVER!! (Which is Barrack Obama!!!) I've seen people put their differences aside and joined hands to progress on. I truly do love this speech. It goes to show that with time comes improvement!

If you have a speech that you want to share and you want it on my blog, here's my email to contact me about it:
greenorangesinger7@gmail.com
Or, if you go to my school, North Canyon High School, you know that you can talk to me anytime!! Well, Peeps, I better go!! I'll talk to you guys later!!

*Remember*~The great aim of education is not knowledge but action.

Your "Proud" Friend,
Saidah Kamaria Wilson, A.K.A Latika

Monday, 1 June 2009

This picture (shown below) was

definitely an inspiration for me!!

It's amazing that I even captured

it on camera!! It's very capturing,

isn't it?!





Look at those rays!! Absolutely

beautiful!! These next three

pictures are overviews of my
backyard!!










Enjoy!!

Friday, 1 May 2009

This picture (shown below) was

This picture (shown below) was
taken in my back yard!! It's a
picture of a round, stubbed cactus!!!
It is incredibly cute up-close!! What
do you think?!


This next picture was also in

my back yard!! You can't really

see from where the picture was
taken, but, it's an orange tree!!
Doesn't it look like a huge broccoli
rooted from the ground?!



Here's a piece of the tree
up-close!!! Can you spot an
orange?!



Here's a picture of our grill
in the backyard!!! Pretty bland,
isn't it?!



Enjoy!!!